Week of waiting

I am still looking for that ever elusive employer that would give me a chance. On top of that, I am waiting to hear back from the applications I submitted for graduate programs. I don't usually do well with waiting. Waiting brings stress, and anxiety. I tend to think of bad and absurd situations while waiting. For example, I think of lost mail, mail mix-ups, transcripts not sent out. After interviews, I tend to think how badly I did. I guess I just have insecurities to get over. Being unemployed for such a long time, I have a lot of insecurities. I never thought I would be in this situation when I graduated, or when I was going to school. I didn't think everything would come up roses, but I did think things would have been better. On to other things though.

I do not have the ability to speed the process up. I can't. I do have the ability to concentrate on other things. I can look for other jobs, submit applications, and start even more waiting. I can watch television. I shouldn't watch television, but I have the ability to watch television. I can read, although, I do not want to. I can walk around the great city of Chicago and explore the vast cityscape. I can walk to a local Starbucks and do nothing. Actually, I am at a Starbucks. Oh well, I guess, I should start doing more exciting things.

I do have a predicament. I have limited funds, which results in stress to find a job fast. I should stop thinking about this. My friend once told me love happens when you least expect it to. I believe opportunity happens when you least expect it to. I guess it has something to do with Grace or the Divine. I just have to be optimistic, work on other things to keep my mind off of having to wait, and submit more applications. Doesn't hurt, right?